Saturday, September 30, 2006

Here it's Back Again

30 September 2006

Today Saturday. I am working on Saturday. Luckily no network problem.
So I can listen to the internet radio, surfing internet, and do whatever I want. I want to do deployment but I think better do it on next Monday where all staff available.
I check for OR, if anything need to be done. Thanks God, no OR. Perhaps it will be like that forever (Means that our system running properly and the big boss will be happy ).
But I do not want to talk about office today, since there’s no much work to do.
Let’s talk about fasting month, Ramadhan. It’s been a week if I ‘m not mistaken, unfortunately I couldn’t feel it because I ‘period’.Too sad. But I am happy anyway to the happening in Ramadhan.

Ramadhan suppose to school for Muslim. Why? We got 11 months, to eat so our body and soul at least need to be trained at least for 1 month. Fasting is not only applied to food, which most of Muslim including sometimes forget about it. It is not about ‘cannot eat’ but also ‘cannot do something bad’ or in another word control our emotion.If the person practice fasting by following it’s rule correctly, he/she will become a better person. Back to nature, pure and clean.

It’s easy to us for not to eat, because most of us, adult especially does not bother much about food. Most of adult do not have fixed schedule for meal because we are busy to work. Sometimes we eat, sometimes not. So I think, fasting that only resist ourselves from eating is not very challenging.

But the most challenging part is our behaviour and soul. Can we resist from being angry easily? Can we resist from talking about other people? Can we stop thinking about doing evil? If we fail in this challenge, how can we improve ourselves in other months?

Maybe certain people think that, why only in Ramadhan we need to be good?I think the question is Can we be good in every months every days? Sometimes it’s very difficult right? So why not we use Ramadhan as our training month.

P/S: When I am thinking about myself,Ramadhan and other months does not give any differences.Which mean I am the one who is looserr??Fail to take advantage from this month.Perhaps I will improve it now.

Saturday, July 29, 2006

Saturday at the Office

Haii alll...
Today is Saturday. Wow, whoever got a break for this day it's very lucky. Maybe Saturday or Sunday is not special as Hari Raya or big day as we usually celebrate. But for me, who experienced working at Saturday in various companies (Sometimes Sunday :-() feel that it is very worth if we can use this only 2 day for ourselves.

We spend 5 day a week working and only weekend we can think about ourselves. I think there a lot of thing that we need to explore out side our working environment. Example, I never been homesick since I became hostel girl. But now at KL, since I entered really hectic working environment I become totally ‘anak manja’ who always miss her family and cat. So bad until I always aim to hug a cat that belongs to my neighbor here. I donno but I already aim several cats as my victim.Ha ha ha

It’s not about I hate my job; actually I loves working and really appreciate if I can get an employer who is really appreciate their worker. Programming maybe same like other job (I am not sure about it).But we always go back home at nite because we always loves to try something new in development. (Are u sure?)
It’s all happen after I just realize that we human being mostly we did the same routine. Studying, working and get married. It does just feel that maybe human maybe designed mostly this way. If we fail to complete those three task, it's sound like we‘re kind of looooooooseeerrr.Is it?
So sad, a lot of people outside there maybe cannot fulfill these three stages. Maybe a kid from divorced family, maybe a student who cannot continue their study because of poverty and a lot of people who got problem. And how about the countries which perish because of war? A lot of failures happen there. It‘s very hard to confess if we are civilian from those countries. People outside there maybe they don’t understand why I am talking about weekend because even the big special day is the same day for them.

When I was little, I also have experienced such a bad poverty. We did not even have opportunity to celebrate Hari Raya with Serunding Ayam instead we cooked fish. New clothes? It was difficult at that time, if my younger brother or sister got one it’s already more than enough for us. And then our house was bumped by durian tree in Ramadan and still we feel very lucky at that time because all of us still alive.

And now, not a lot of changes happen but we still happy because we worked hard to get over it. And special day that I always dream of is that I can spend my time with my family. (In other word, I always dream that I can work close to my hometown and see my parent face everyday and take care of them like what they did before—this is truly dream, very difficult to achieve)But what can I do only keep in touch with them. Let my mom hear my voice, mostly everyday…I really want to do something like TMNet commercial. Have a dinner with my family even only thru internet conference.(Huh u hu…I am gonna cry)

In our life, the most important thing is happiness. It’s ok to become workaholic as long we are happy and other people do not suffer. As we keep our environment no harm, it’s ok. (Aper la melalut nih)…Whatever we did just think about the consequences, whether we want to follow studying, working and married or not, that‘s only choices that we can choose. So don’t push ourselves too hard (I got that advise so many times).Just become true self.

Sooo..Oppss back to our main topic, Saturday.To those who get break on the weekend please utilize it. That is what we call quality time. (Ehhh...don't blaming me on wasting time writing blog at office.My Boss don even pay me for OT, because I sacrificed my break time to come to the office so I need to steal it a little(stress management-he he he )-ampun bosss……)
P/s: To all my friends, I miss u all. So just let me know if u wants me to get involve on weekend activities. Thank you.

Wednesday, February 15, 2006

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If you feel BAD like me

Good day!! Today somehow I feel very happy.Energetic?Maybe because of KOKO Krunch..He he he...

Sometimes I feel very a whole world reject me.But then I always remember my mom.She the one who bring up my day no matter where I am.Her 'aura' is always surrounding me. I am not a girl who always be pampered but I always be tought how to be tough.Believe or not I start working as production operator since I was 18 because I knew if I won't, I will not be able to continue my study.To enter university,you need money not only to pay the fee but to buy all the needs before and during your study such as meal,book and even for transportation.

I could not depend on my parent because they also need to take care other seven children after me.I am eldest,so whether I want it or not I need to be strong.If not how can my younger siblings can learn from me.That was really hard time.A lot of tears will come out if I remember.A lot of suffer we faced.But I decide to share it after I achieve my goal where I can do it proudly.I am looking forward it.

But let me share how to face it.Maybe it can help you, although only a little but at least you will feel better.For me, no one can makes you happy except yourself and people who loves you.What you don't have people who loves you?Your mom?Not also?Okay how about your God?Feel it.Don't assume that your God will show His loves phisically like human do.Feel His present.

Can you feel the nice air?Breath it.It is a gift from God to you.Now think why you always get suffered but others did not?Actually you are the one who think like that.You think you're the one unluckiest person,but do you know other peoples thinking?Maybe they also same like you. So as a conclusion, humans are same.All of us will experience bitterness or sweetness in this world and maybe certain people will feel the sweetness as a bitterness depend on how we take it.

Bad thing happens as a test to see whether we are strong or not and good thing happens as a gift to us and maybe it can be a test to see how we handle it.But the most important thing is we should think positive and take it positively.Then after that we can be happy and enjoy our life.People who never feel pain will not be able to enjoy their healthiness.

When ever I feel bad,I will remember my mom's word."Feeling pain/suffer is a proof that you're close to victory".For example if you are climbing a mountain,the hardest part is when we were close to the top of the mountain because we need to face difficult slope like my experience climbing Bukit Metinggi at Cameron Highlands.After we facing that,then we can proudly having picnic at the top of it or place our flag on the top of the mountain.

So,when we having hard time,just think about it.Life is full with a new thing for us to learn.We cannot give up just like that without trying.Remember when we were little,we tried our best to stand up and run although so many times we fell down.Yes we crying,but we never stop trying. So all of us have that strength.So just stand up and face this life.There will be at least someone loves you.Enjoy it.

Smile always!

p/s:The biggest gift that I got from my parent is my name.So do you.When we was born,all people will feel happy,our parents will take a lot of time to think about our name,of course it must be a good one.All the blesses and prayers is inside our name.So be happy.
What?Your parent throw you away?!Dont worry at least your name is not Experiment 626.